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I got a MFP.....

Chill out vibes for the day....

click here thanks to Funk You.

M.T. Head

Mike Tyson strikes again.

Happy Holidays

I really should have been a socialist. Society has intrigued me for years, all this time I just thought I was nosey. My most recent foray into popular culture and why certain things exist at all is studying commerce and how corporations attempt to get our hard earn scratch. The retail giants of New York pride themselves on their windows. Barneys, Bergdorf Goodman, Sacks and Macy’s holiday windows show everything from Vaudeville scenes to scenes from literature to blatant cross marketing/product placement with current movies of the season. I understand the role of marketing in a capitalist society, I just don’t like to be “marketed down to” (last image, work from Bansky).

The woman that got my attention this year…

- First woman in central or eastern Africa to hold a Phd.

- First woman head of a university department in Kenya

- First African woman to win a Nobel Peace price

Wangari Maathai founded the Green Belt movement in Kenya in 1977, which has planted more than 10 million trees to prevent soil erosion and provide firewood for cooking fires. A 1989 United Nations report noted that only 9 trees were being replanted in Africa for every 100 that were cut down, causing serious problems with deforestation: soil runoff, water pollution, difficulty finding firewood, lack of animal nutrition, etc. The program has been carried out primarily by women in the villages of Kenya, who through protecting their environment and through the paid employment for planting the trees are able to better care for their children and their children's future.



NPR story here.

Local Artist of the year…

Kelsy Davis and the Radical Soul

This guy is amazing…. amazing….no flash…just soul Fender Rhodes infused, soul. Real soul music. The last time I saw him he had on what looked like pajama bottoms. If I hadn’t seen him out in public with a very attractive young lady I would have thought he was someone trying to be extra eccentric just to be eccentric. The Radical Soul is amazing, and he is sick…during a break where the band is just rollin’ he was in the back of the room smoking…singing…almost like he was in the audience as a fan. The audience went crazy! Amazing show…if your in town look him up…its worth it.

Tapes

The University of Virginia has thousands of hours of White House released tapes....in twenty years what will the G.W. Bush tapes tell us?

Night Tracks

Since I was short watching videos for free…before we got cable, I have noticed that everyone wants to do an end of the year recap. Mine will not be a definitive “Top (blah, blah, blah) “ or anything as restrictive as that. My list is more organic, and less authoritative. Let’s call it, “The things I got into this year”. Fell free to give me yours or do it on your page so I can be nosey.

Music

Kanye West. For many reasons I liked College Dropout. 1.Anyone that gets a song called Jesus walks one the Billboard charts should be labeled a visionary. 2. I’ve heard reporters call him arrogant…mostly I’ve heard him say everyone thinks he’s arrogant. That’s an opinion, I can see where it comes from and I also see the need for humility. But a man that wrote Jesus Walks is not a megalomaniac. A man that gives himself a nick name on the other hand needs attention, a man that nick names him self, J-Hova…might be a little arrogant. I digress. Hip hop is about self expression…making something out of nothing…working with what you have. The human beat box. Turning a 3-4 second break on your dads James Brown or your moms Chic record into a 15 min song to let your friend rap over it. Turning vandalism into an art form. In a commercial landscape that only talks about 3 subjects its refreshing to see an artist change the approach. I like his attention to detail. From being his own stylist, and taking it back to 8^th grad with the prep or die look, to having Aisha Tyler in a video, to the Prodigy rip off “All Falls Down” video the was pulled off lovely buy director Chris Milk. Lick one shot for Stacey Dash and that dress…and the breez that day.

If I ever said some asinine shit like, 'Yo, I'm gonna get nominated for the most awards ever,' people would just say I'm arrogant? But I'm not," he says. "So many people I work with just don't believe." He stops tapping on the console, looks up and focuses. "I don't see what's wrong with saying, I'm going to sell three million records. Not even saying 'I want to' but 'I am going to', in order to give myself that confidence. But people turn around and say I'm arrogant."

He pauses, cocks his head and resumes, gradually working himself into a frenzy.

"They're doubting. They're saying, first of all, you can't do it. And secondly, your method – to build your esteem up so that you have something to believe in and set your goals – is wrong too.

So they bashing you on both ends. You can't believe that there is something greater for you out there. [He puts on whiney voice] 'Oh, he's so arrogant! He has dreams. Why should he dream? And if he does dream, don't let him say it loud!'"

Kw

**This post will be in parts** Next part my inspirational woman of the year.

Hip Hop artist of the Year

With the release of Madvillainly – MM Food – and work on the new De La…I give it to the Mad Villain...

MF Doom- no surprise here. Went from ashy to classy…from getting dropped from his label to being the H.N.I.C. of the underground world. His original 12” go for over $500 on ebay. His first disk…a CD sells is cant be found and if you do its over $100. $100 for a CD….how many of the CD’s in your collection are worth over $100?

Is it true?

NEW YORK -- A document released for the first time today by the American Civil Liberties Union suggests that President Bush issued an Executive Order authorizing the use of inhumane interrogation methods against detainees in Iraq. Also released by the ACLU today are a slew of other records including a December 2003 FBI e-mail that characterizes methods used by the Defense Department as "torture" and a June 2004 "Urgent Report" to the Director of the FBI that raises concerns that abuse of detainees is being covered up.

Jacko

I dont know why but, I really feel sorry for Mr. Jackson. If he's guilty I really feel sorry for the victims. Either way is a lose, lose ordeal. Current story here.

put me on ....

one of my major complaints is that its hard to find someone to put me on to something diffrent. Most of the people I run into talk about the samethings. So I plead to you, my internet homefries. Put me on to something... you favorite internet sites....a hobbie that you love...something that you have seen or done recently that is out of the mainstream. I thank you in advance. :)

Chocolate covered peanut butter and assorted “treats”

If it were up to the people in my office I would have type 2 “sugar” within a week. For goodness sake people its Christmas not eat junk food until we get the gout.

Ok, slower day at the bean factory...

This NPR story had me laughing out loud...I think its in ACT one. If you get a chance to listen to it, you have to tell me what super power you would pick and why...your choices are the power of flight or the power of invisibility.

Rodman?

I heard this story on the radio yesterday on the way home. PETA was protesting a slaughterhouse for being cruel. I’ve never been to a slaughterhouse but just by definition I cant imagine a slaughterhouse not being cruel. I listened as farmers in Iowa explained that if it was up to PETA they would all be out of business… which I believe, isn’t true but that’s another story. I have never considered becoming a member of PETA because I don’t fully share their beliefs, or agree with some of their member’s tactics, but they do serve a purpose. Kind of like the IRS, or ACLU. I don’t believe that everyone in the world should be a vegetarian but I do believe that everyone should know where their food comes from and demand that the food they are given is not given excessive drugs, blah, blah… I do think there is a direct link to what you put into your body to the quality of your life. Period. I went to the site to see this video. I couldn’t get past the first 3 sceonds.

here is the entire article.

funny site

At this site they list comics that never really made it. How can a super hero not make it in life? If superheros cant make it...who can?


Check out Garret Morris and the rest of the Not Ready For PrimeTime players in a Spiderman comic.

blog roll...

Today will be blogg-a-licious. ...its just one of those days...

check this out, its amazing how life goes in circles...check out the firs part of this NPR show about Frank Sinatra...its amazing that it is look as a great intergration to have Sammy Davis in the Rat Pack...but most of the show they spend making fun of Sammy. ...the things you have to do to "make it".

stolen idea....

stolen from this young lady...

LAST PERSON THAT...

1. Slept in your bed: Besides me? Lauryn

2. Saw you cry: Lauryn

3. Made you cry: Lauryn (good cry)

4. You shared a drink with: My man “A”

5. You went to the movies with: Mini Me

6. You went to the mall with: Lauryn.
7. Yelled at you: Some place filler with rolls.

8. Sent you an email: Work people.
9. You kissed: Lauryn.

HAVE YOU EVER...

x. Said "I Love You" and meant it? Yes.
x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: Yes…I miss my Chloe’.
x. Been to California: Yes.
x. Been to Hawaii: No.
x. Been to Mexico: Yes.
x. Been to China: No.
x. Been to Canada: Nope.
x. Danced naked: No.
x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day?: Yes.
x. Wish you were the opposite sex: Yes.
x. Had an imaginary friend: Yes.
x. Do you have a crush on someone: No.

x. What book are you reading now: Some kids book with mini me.
x. Worst feeling in the world: Doing something I don’t want to do.
x. Future son's name: Adam.
x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: No.
x. What's under your bed: Shoes, porn, books, journals.
x. Favorite sport to watch: Golf or Football.
x. Piercings/tattoos: Yes.
x. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Yes.

EXTRA STUFF...

x. Do you do drugs: No.
x. Do you drink: Yes.
x. What are you most scared of: Being mediocre.
x. What clothes do you sleep in: Sleep shorts.
x. Where do you want to get married: That changes very often…this week its NYC.
x. Who do you really hate: Nobody.
x. Been in Love: Yes.
x. Do you like being around people: Only when necessary.
x. Are you for world peace: Yeah.
x. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: Yes, Tuesday Griggs…and some girl named Pam.
x. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: Yeah…I like corny women…that are adventurous
x. Are you lonely right now: No.
x. Song thats stuck in your head a lot: Loop Digga weeded remix…Madlib/Quaz
x. Do you want to get married: Yes.
x. Do you want kids: more like a small town or sheriffs posse…yeah..I want a gang of kids

FAVORITE...

x. Room in house: record room
x. Type(s) of music: jazz…hip hop…soul…Portishead type of stuff…different stuff..and bad rap music.
x. Color(s): red
x. Perfume or cologne?: Gucci

x. Month(s): May, June, July, Aug, April
x. Stone: n/a

IN THE LAST 72 HOURS, HAVE YOU...

x. Cried: No.
x. Bought something: Yes.
x. Gotten sick: No.
x. Sang: Yes.
x. Wanted to tell someone you loved them: Yes..
x. Met someone new: No.
x. Missed someone: Yes.
x. Hugged someone: Yes.
x. Kissed someone: Yes.

thin line

Ive always maintained that there is a thin line between everything in life. Failure/Success. Eccentric/Cooky. Cool/Lame. Sane/Insane... Heres to my man Ricy finding peace.

WWJD

Recently in my city a mega church marched against gay marriage. I don't claim to be a theologian, but I never read anything about Christ protesting anything, 'sept the money chargers. His love was boundless, prostitutes, thieves... now we have pastors driving Maybach's and passing judgement. Maybe the chior director should be made an example of ...

Thousands of Blacks March in Protest of Gay Marriage
The Atlanta Journal/Constitution ^ | 12/11/2004 | John Blake

Posted on 12/11/2004 1:14:37 PM PST by groanup

There they were — thousands of them, wearing long-sleeve black T-shirts with the words "STOP THE SILENCE" across the front.

Others were dressed in camouflage.

They marched along Auburn Avenue, through one of Atlanta's most-storied neighborhoods.

And they met some opposition.

About 50 counter-demonstrators lined the street, singing, "In the name of Jesus, hate has got to go."

And so it went Saturday morning, as Bishop Eddie Long, senior pastor of New Birth Missionary Church, a predominantly black megachurch in Lithonia, led a march from the King Memorial to Turner Field calling for a constitutional ban on same-sex marriage.

The group departed from the King Memorial around 10 a.m., and they arrived in the parking lot of Turner Field shortly before 11.

As the 45-minute march from the King Center to Turner Field concluded, Long told his supporters, some shivering from temperatures in the 40s, that it was time for the black community to be heard.

"We can't be silenced," Long said to cheers in a parking lot outside of Turner Field.

"We are not marching against folks," he said. "We are marching for folks."

bored to tears so....

I copied this from someone elses blog...the ones in bold are true...
01. When I was younger, I made some bad decisions
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love olives
04. I love sleeping
05. I own lots of books
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses
07. I love to play video games
08. I've tried marijuana
09. I've watched porn movies
10. I have been in a threesome
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy
13. I have acne free skin
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton
15. I curse frequently
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have hobbies
18. I've been told I: (women) have an applebottom, (men) am packing.
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
20. I'm really, really smart
21. I've never broken someone's bones- damn sure tried though
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I hate the rain
24. I'm paranoid at times
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
26. I need money right now
27. I love Sushi
28. I talk really, really fast
29. I have fresh breath in the morning
30. I have semi-long hair
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
34. I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis
35. I have a twin
36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyes in the past
37. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look
39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
40. I know how to cornrow
41. I am usually pessimistic
42. I have a lot of mood swings
43. I think prostitution should be legalized
44. I think Britney Spears is hot
45. I have cheated on a Sig. O. in the past
46. I have a hidden talent
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
48. I think that I'm popular
49. I am currently single
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex
51. I enjoy talking on the phone
52. I practically live in sweatpants
53. I love to shop
54. I would rather shop than eat
55. I would classify myself as ghetto
56. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders-but i will never do it again, but i am bourgie...i admit it
57. I'm obsessed with my Diaryland Blogger.
58. I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
59. I'm a pretty good dancer
60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
62. I have a cell phone
63. I believe in God
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
66. I love drama
67. I have never been in a real relationship before
68. I've rejected someone before
69. I currently have a crush on someone
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
71. I want to have children in the future
72. I have changed a diaper before
73. I've called the cops on a friend before
74. I bite my nails
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
76. I'm not allergic to anything
77. I have a lot to learn
78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger (older, no R-ruh here)
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex
81. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved
83. I have tried alcohol or drugs at a party
84. I have made a move on a friend's Sig. O. in the past
85. I own the "South Park" movie/episodes
86. I have avoided assignments at work to be online
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum
88. I enjoy country music
89. I would die for my best friends
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can
92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story"
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
98. I have dated a close friend's ex
99. I'm happy as of this moment

"Follow Me!"

One time for the Airborne Ranger that won on the Apprentice last night.

while Im in a lick shot mood...

one time for letter jackest, high rights, getting other peoples class notes, starting food fights, learning the finer things in life like beer, wings, girls that kind of sing your name when they see you..."Heyyyyyyyyyy a, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa"...and the days when you had to wait for Freddie to come on Yo! to see hip hop/rap videos on MTV.

From the top of the key, for three, its villian

The supervillian on national TV...lick one for the underdog...

*up rockin in place*

*in the background plays...."Friends...how many of us have them....Friends..."*

---I've run the gambit with friends, and have come to one conclusion...I quote MF... "...come in- go out alone black- watch ya own back- stay in the zone - turn H2O, to congac" Being a only child I'm a natural loner. Not a trench coat moffia loner. I've played sports all my life, always been in a relationship, and always had plenty (read: too many) of people around. But left to my own devices I would rater be alone. A turntable, mixter, a cassette four track and a S950...and Im in heaven. I guess the point if this ramble is that you (read: I) cant let anyone take me out of my zone.

I read this...this morning if you have time...this dude is great. Really talented person...check out the blog...Ive read the past post three times already and its only 9:30.

i cant help it...sometimes days are just like this...

sout out to my man O-dub for putting this up on one of his sites. I havent heard that in probaly a year or so....

if any one is intrested...

here's an interesting article about the good Revrend Al Sharp-tone.

Count Bass D

Avil only in Japan, hit him up and get your copy...

I love it...

another note for people saying fuck it...Im gonna do "__________". Last week on NPR there was a story about a dance group in Cuba. All of the members were 300lbs or over. There was also this story about a lady that taught kids living in a brothel in India how to take pictures...she ended up making a documentary about it and sending some of the kids to a bording school. Check it out on npr.org . So surfing today I came across this site... maxrocksfresh.com dude was like, you know what...I'm gonna rap...I'm going to contribute to the quilt called hip hop....thats what Im talking about. A friend of mine had this ongoing discussion for a few years about "stuff". To him no matter what it was, he had to have the bust he could afford. $20 thousand for a streo or $5k for a camera. My postion is, I'm not on a journey for perfection...the cool part about life is the querkyness of it all. Buying the plastic medium format camera with a plastic lense that takes pictures like this...




going to see Sade live at the Ampitheater...and going home to listen to a scratchy copy at home over a bottle of wine...

Whats with people and the endless persuit of consumption?

wouldnt it be cool to get to the point in life...

where you are like, You know what...I dont give a fuck. So what., I'm fine, I'm rich and I dont care what grandma will say if she see's my tatas in a magazine. And you actually conducted your life that way. This morning on one of the local negro radio FM, crunk fest morning shows they were talking about this picture...




the women ofcourse was 'disgusted'. And the guys were like "yeah!". Look this is a long standing argument. If I had the male equivilante of the body that Serena has, I would show it off too...not like those dudes that wear the vest with no shirts, or the tight blouse type of shirts in public or the package showing work-out clothes but hey, in my own way I would show it off. Most of the women that were talking about it being "disgusting", please. Lets be serious. Most women have gone 'comando' on at least a few occasions and someone might have gotten a quick peek. Let Serena show her cooch if she wants.

bombin'

www.woostercollective.com still puttin in work...gotta love it.

Change Clothes

Yesterday I was fulfilling one of my biggest fetishes, magazines at a local mega book store when I discovered the name of a photographer whose work I have admired for a while now. Terry Richardson. His work reminds me of a Helmut Newton with tattoos. I have seen his work and always loved it, but never took the time to read photographer credits. Most recently I saw a Tom Ford spread he did for GQ…the guy is great…he’s like El-P with a camera. Takes what you thought you knew and creates something new…Fantastic Damage with a Yashica. Posted are a few of his tamer pieces.

p.s.

the Terry Richardson interview is so interesting I thought I'd print it here. I love people with intresting stories...with the people I know the most interesting their story gets is the "wild week" they spent in Cancun, or "one time in band camp..."


Terry Richardson, 1998
WITH BRUCE LaBRUCEPHOTOGRAPHED BY BRUCE LaBRUCE
"Most people when they meet me think I'm English and gay," says Terry Richardson, who is neither. In fact, he's about as American and straight as you can get — and I mean that strictly as a compliment. When I bumped into Harmony a few months ago at a glamorous index party at Barmacy, the Kid told me he had to hook me up with Terry, an alleged fan of mine, whose career as a fashion photog I had been following à la distance for quite some time.
When we met, it was one of those instant friendships — add Stoli and stir. We discovered we had a lot in common: both of us have anchors tattooed on our right forearms; both were full-on punk rockers in the '80s; both had extremely traumatic potty training experiences ... But before I start to sound like Mailer on Marilyn ("Bruce LaBruce is virtually an anagram for Terry Richardson - except for about twelve consonants and a few vowels"), let me just say I think Terry is terrific. Whether photographing women on death row for George magazine or Sharon Stone for the cover of Harper's Bazaar, the mutton-chopped Mr. Richardson, son of Bob (read the interview and all will be explained), is a straight-ahead, salt-of-the-earth kind of guy who remains refreshingly untouched by all the fashion falderal.
As the interview began, Terry was on his way to pick up copies of his very first book - an impressive affair produced under the auspices of the Japanese fashion house Hysteric Glamour. Terry was ecstatic, as the book had arrived just in time for his big debut - a one man show of his photographs at the Alleged Gallery. Heady with excitement, he recounted his turbulent history to me as we indulged in various stimulants (espresso and cola) and depressants (sake and Red Stripe).
The photographs, p.s., were taken by yours truly with Terry's very own trademark snapshot camera.
BRUCE: Do you think you inherited fashion photographer genes from your father?TERRY: I inherited all the schizophrenia, depression, anxieties, and a Napoleon complex, even though we're both six feet tall. BRUCE: But it's also osmotic, don't you think? TERRY: It's totally Sabbath, man. Totally Ozzie. BRUCE: No, no, osmotic.TERRY: I only have a tenth grade education, Bruce, so don't throw those heavy words at me. BRUCE: Like through osmosis - you were in that environment from such a young age that you acquire a feel for it through osmosis. Or maybe it's more like photosynthesis. TERRY: When I was about eleven years old and my balls had just begun to drop I was vacationing in Haiti with my father. One night, these two eighteen year old model chicks brought me into their hotel room and one was in the shower with these big breasts and I remember having this really erotic experience with them. BRUCE: And that was Veruschka and Penelope Tree, I suppose. TERRY: I love all those early sexual experiences. They're so innocent. BRUCE: So you had access to babes from a very young age, which is probably one reason why you got into fashion photography. So give me a historical linearity. When you were born was your father already famous as a fashion photog? TERRY: Yeah, he was already quite famous, he was doing Harper's Bazaar in America, a contract guy doing his quite radical pictures, and when I was one we moved to Paris because he thought he could do stronger pictures there, which I think he did. He worked for French Vogue in the '60s, and we lived there for four years and when I was five we moved back to New York. French was my first language. BRUCE: Do you still speak French. TERRY: Oui oui. Voulez-vous couchez avec moi ce soir? BRUCE: Peut-etre, plus tard. TERRY: Hey! Before she met my dad my mom was dating Gerry Mulligan, the jazz musician, and lived in Greenwich Village and worked at a coffee shop on Greenwich Street. She was a dancer at the Copacabana, smoked a lot of tea, and then my dad walked into the Copa and fell in love with her and she left Gerry Mulligan for him. At that time my dad was very conservative, from Long Island, wearing button-down shirts, very upper middle class. BRUCE: So how did he get into photography? TERRY: My dad went to art school with Andy Warhol, then ended up as a window decorator like Andy. He also wanted to be a painter, but a friend of his gave him a Roloflex and told him he should be a photographer. Then he met my mom and she gave up everything for him and supported him, and eventually we moved to Paris. My mom worked as his stylist, and we were all decked out in cowboy clothes which was quite a sensation. BRUCE: But after you moved back to New York your parents split up? TERRY: We had moved back to New York and a friend of my dad's said, "There's a model in town you have to meet," and it was Anjelica Huston. Anjelica walked into his studio one day, and three months later they were living together. She was seventeen and he was forty-three. They were together for three years, and she was sort of like my older sister. BRUCE: Where was your mom? TERRY: She started seeing Jimi Hendrix. He used to come over and I remember him playing his guitar and picking me up and throwing me in the air when I was about four and a half. We had a penthouse on Jane Street, and one night I walked out onto the balcony and my mom was making out with Kris Kristoferson. I remember going to his place in the country and riding horses for a few weeks. He was always very cool. BRUCE: So you were left with your mother in New York? TERRY: But she was like, fuck New York, I'm moving to Woodstock, so in 1971 we moved up there. BRUCE: Why Woodstock? TERRY: Because in the early '70s it was still counter-culture and everyone who was fed up living in the big city moved there. She would commute to New York because she was a stylist. Todd Rundgren was up there, and the Sales brothers, Soupy Sales' kids, Tony and Hunt, who ended up playing with Iggy Pop - Tony had blue hair, and Hunt had black hair with a big white skunk streak through it - they were 1971 pre-punks. BRUCE: What was it like at the time? TERRY: There was this whole scene. My stepdad was Jackie Lomax, who was the first guy signed to Apple Records. I remember hanging out with all these people in the recording studios - there was Rick Danko and the Band and Bob Dylan. My mom took incredible photographs and documented that whole scene. It was nice then because everyone would be completely fucked up and drunk and on drugs at parties, all the little kids would be running around at one o'clock in the morning. I remember making out with Maria Muldaur's daughter Jenny. BRUCE: How old were you then? TERRY: Six, seven ... BRUCE: And you were already copulating? TERRY: Just playing. You'd be in the shower or you'd pull down your pants and play choo choo train. BRUCE: You're straight, but you've had a lot of homosexual experimentation? TERRY: In elementary school we used to have pee fights and run around and pee on each other. When I was seven I couldn't stand girls, but your best friends are boys so you're all mooning each other and pulling apart your butt cheeks. BRUCE: Was there lots of nudism in Woodstock? TERRY: Yeah, totally. Men would be shooting off guns at night, like Michael Pollard and all those people. He lived next door to us. BRUCE: I love Michael J. Pollard. TERRY: He was incredible. He was just a total mess. BRUCE: He was a big star for a while. After Bonnie and Clyde in the early '70s there was Hannibal Brooks and Little Faus and Big Halsey. Stars back then could look like freaks. TERRY: But he was like W.C. Fields. I mean, the sad thing was drugs didn't destroy him but alcohol did. When I was spending summers with my dad at the Gramercy Park Hotel he'd show up at four in the morning drunk, ranting and raving. BRUCE: He was also on that amazing Star Trek episode about the Grups ... TERRY: He was on Dukes of Hazzard too, man. BRUCE: And that episode of Lost in Space where he lived in the mirror. TERRY: Michael's still around, man. He does commercials. BRUCE: And you were neighbors. TERRY: He pulled a gun on me one night, a .38. He got really drunk and started pointing his gun at the kids. It was a heavy scene, it was all acid and people were experimenting with things that just blew their minds and if you were a little unstable to begin with those things just made you completely out of your mind. BRUCE: The early '70s was when it all went wrong. Just for clarification, your mother's maiden name was ... TERRY: Norma Kessler, but my stepdad renamed her Annie because she used to wear cowboy clothes and he thought she looked like Annie Oakley so her name is Annie Lomax now. She's a better photographer than me and my father put together. Her pictures are incredible. She photographed all through my high school punk rock years and everything and now she just sits there in this little town, handicapped, with all these incredible photographs. BRUCE: She had an accident? TERRY: Yeah, when I was nine. She was in a Volkswagen bug and she was going onto the freeway and a telephone truck that was doing like, seventy miles an hour rear-ended her. She was in a coma for a month and her equilibrium was fucked and she was in diapers, couldn't walk. BRUCE: Wow. You were a real care-giver from a really young age. TERRY: [fake weeping] Yeah, it really fucked me up. BRUCE: I'm sure it made you very responsible. TERRY: And it also made me very attracted to very dysfunctional, fucked-up people. But my wife Nikki is very together. BRUCE: [laughing] Brackets close brackets. TERRY: And so is my friend Bruce LaBruce over here. BRUCE: Ha ha. TERRY: Everyone I know has been abused and been through fucked up things, and when you're a kid you're just so vulnerable. Very few people have had perfect childhoods. BRUCE: I had one. And look what happened to me! Anyway, you were in LA when your mother had the accident? TERRY: I moved to London from Woodstock with my mother because my stepdad was in some supergroup called Badger for about six months, and from there we moved to Hollywood where he had a deal with Capitol Records. I was going to a child psychiatrist because I used to be really hyperactive and violent and beat up people all the time. I had a green belt in karate. BRUCE: You were a bully? TERRY: No, I only beat up people when they were fucking with me, and people bigger than me. So when I was in fourth grade I beat up all the sixth graders. I'd just go up and kick ass. I liked to fight, and I had a mean roundhouse kick. BRUCE: A green belt. Is that good? TERRY: Yeah, that was like a year and a half of karate. I was hyperactive and very violent and I used to fucking just destroy my room and smash everything and have tantrums. I used to hear voices in my head, but that's gone away a little bit now. BRUCE: Good. TERRY: So I was waiting outside my psychiatrist's office and my mom was on her way to pick me up when she was hit by a truck. BRUCE: Oh wow. TERRY: And six months later mom came home in diapers. But it's all good, you know? As Anjelica Huston once said to me, "God, your parents are so fucked up I'm surprised you came out so normal." BRUCE: Don't you have a Robert Downey Jr. story? TERRY: We were like nine or ten and we smoked weed and played "Cream the Carrier." BRUCE: What's that? TERRY: You know, you run around and tackle each other and get the person into a position until they say "Uncle." I didn't see him again until years later, I was 22 and running these underground clubs in LA - Viva La Revolution and Dr. T's - and he came into one of them. BRUCE: Where were those clubs?TERRY: Downtown. MacArthur Park and below was where all the cool underground clubs were. The '80s in L.A. were really amazing and decadent.BRUCE: So-Cal punk is legendary.TERRY: Yeah, I saw The Germs and Black Flag when I was a little kid. BRUCE: Were you around when Penelope Spheeris was shooting The Decline of Western Civilization? TERRY: Yeah, I went to the premier at Graumann's Chinese. The police barricaded off Hollywood Boulevard because they thought there would be a riot — which there was. But Decline, man ... I mean, no disrespect to New York Hardcore, but the SoCal punk scene was the scene as far as I'm concerned, with all those real cute Huntington Beach surfer skinhead boys. BRUCE: And you were in the band Doggie Style — you caught the tail end of Doggie Style. Were you on Doggie Style II, with the Led Zeppelin cover? TERRY: Just after that. I was in SSA before that, and a band called Baby Fist from Ventura. I was in a lot of garage bands, I had a lot of fun. BRUCE: Did your father encourage you to be a photographer? TERRY: I started taking pictures when I was eighteen, and I ran into my father. I rescued him, he was homeless. But when he saw my pictures, he discouraged me so bad that I threw away my camera. I stopped taking pictures for seven years. I wish I'd never stopped, for all the moments of my life that I missed. I think it was because he wasn't taking pictures that he didn't accept that I was. BRUCE: What made you start taking photos again? TERRY: I moved to New York and my father followed shortly after. We worked together for six months. We did really terrible pictures together. We were going to do a story for Vibe, but the night before the shoot I told my father I had to do it by myself or I'd never get any respect. BRUCE: But you'd gotten the job on the basis that it would be the two of you together? TERRY: Yeah, I was taking the pictures and he was art directing them. So he said, "You can't do it on your own, you're not good enough," and I said, "Fuck you, I'll do it on my own," and hung up the phone. I went and did the story and it ended up in the Festival de la Mode and was shown at the Louvre and all that. And then he wouldn't speak to me and I just took photos on my own in the East Village for two years. And now when I tell him that he wasn't very supportive and he was very fucked up, he says that's what made me a good photographer. BRUCE: Do you believe that? TERRY: Yes and no. I was strong enough and had a big enough ego that I could say, "Fuck you, I'm going to show you I can do it." We just had a weird co-dependant relationship. Us separating was the best thing that could have happened because I went out on my own and learned how to take pictures. It became an obsession. But he shouldn't take credit for that necessarily. BRUCE: That photo of you by your father I saw in Big is so homoerotic. How do you feel about that? TERRY: Well I'm a bit of an egotist, so it was my idea to wear a little tank top and long johns. He showed up and that's what I was wearing. I wanted to look good. My Dad's not gay, he's more trisexual. He'll try anything. He just loves sexual experiences. As the French say, he has joie de vivre. Andrew Dice Clay says you either suck dick or you don't, but in my father's case he just loves youth and beauty. To be old and broke and have a young lover is way more chic than if you have a lot of money, because if you're rich they're attracted to you for that reason only. If you're broke they must be attracted to you because you're intelligent and fascinating and a very good lover, which is quite nice I think. BRUCE: And your father used to hit on your friends when he was living with you? TERRY: Yeah, and he had a six month affair with an actor friend of mine who was twenty-three, and my dad was sixty-seven at the time. I'm having a script written about it called "Born Again Christian," which is also about my relationship with my father. BRUCE: You and your dad were sleeping in the same bed at one point, correct? TERRY: This was a couple of years after the whole Vibe thing when we weren't speaking to each other. He had just gotten out of jail. He had been evicted from his apartment but he wouldn't leave so the police arrested him. He called and said, "Look, I just want to stay with you for one night," but he ended up staying four months in my tiny one room apartment. It was pretty intense. So finally I said, "If you don't move out, I'm going to kill you," and he moved out the next day. I probably would have killed him. I mean, I do love him, but ... BRUCE: We all have our limits. TERRY: So he went to this transient hotel for about six months, and then he started teaching and got it together and got his own apartment. It's amazing that he got a second chance. Not many people get as low as he did and are allowed to come back. BRUCE: He lived on the street for a couple of years in LA? TERRY: When I was 19, I hadn't seen my dad in three years. He was living with his older brother who was on lithium and a complete basket case in San Diego. So on his birthday I hopped in my car and drove to San Diego and knocked on the door of this motel, he opened the door and I said, "Happy Birthday, Dad!" and he nearly had a heart attack. I told him I loved him and missed him and it was great.About two months later he called up and he said he's taking a Greyhound bus to Hollywood and he wants to start working again and would I help him out? So we lived together for a bit and we had this huge fight and he went to live on the street. Then he called me and said he'd been attacked and I went to pick him up and he was all bloody and beaten up. So I got him an apartment and he started testing models and building a portfolio again. He had set most of his old pictures on fire. But then one day he left a note and said he wasn't happy and went to live on the streets again. Three years later he ended up in San Francisco living in a hotel selling newspapers. BRUCE: Was he taking any pictures at all at this point? TERRY: In between that he had been living with this millionaire who had this huge mansion in Beverly Hills. He would bring home young prostitutes and get my father to photograph them, but he got fed up with that and wouldn't do it, so the guy called the police and had him thrown in jail. He ended up in San Francisco, and I quit my band and moved there to spend some time with him. He started helping me out with pictures, and then I went to New York and he followed shortly after. BRUCE: Didn't people still remember him? TERRY: At one point we were totally broke and I tracked down some of his old negatives at French Vogue and places like that - he had none of them - and I remember going to Bruce Weber and Steven Meisel to sell them prints. Bruce was very kind. He said he'd always loved my father's pictures, and he bought some. And Steven did too. BRUCE: So what was your big break after the Vibe thing? TERRY: Phil Bikker from London called me one day and said Katherine Hamnett was looking for a new photographer, so I sent a bunch of personal pictures — people with their dicks out and all that — and three days later they called me and said I had the campaign. BRUCE: Wow.TERRY: So I went to London and started working for the Face and iD and launched my career, then came back to America and eventually started working for Harper's Bazaar. My father was teaching and I finally got him Social Security and he decided to start taking pictures again. That parlayed into him doing Big magazine and hooking up with Italian Vogue. Anyway, it's all turned out quite good, and I'm really happy. He's seventy years old and he says he still wakes up with a hard-on every morning. BRUCE: A blessing or a curse? TERRY: After all we've been through, he's a complete pain in the ass but I love him because he's my father. You only have one father and we've always had a ridiculous relationship, but I do love the man. As it stands now, we haven't spoken in eight months and he won't return my phone calls — bastard — so if you read this, call me back, because you could have had some really nice naked pictures taken by Bruce, and you could have taken some nice naked pictures of Bruce too. BRUCE: Yah!