A great new finger food.

why should each post have a diffrent title?

I have been so out of the loop lately- I fell totally off my square so much lately I had to order some music off the net to see if I could get my piece of mind back. I was in the book store yesterday and noticed that the latest installment in the game I refer to as, “The single best game I have ever played in my life”, is coming out next week.

I would pick it up but it would be silly because I don’t nave blocks of time in my life that I would refer to as ‘free’. I miss video games – and music so bad. I grew up playing video games like most of the people in my age group. I had a Atari – Super Nintendo- and played for hours upon hours but wouldn’t consider myself a hardcore gamer. I almost became a hardcore gamer. The only woman that has ever broken up with me gave me a Dreamcast as what I recognize now as a parting gift. The signs were so there that she wasn’t happy with the relationship, I can see it after the fact, but while in the fray I didn’t want to acknowledge it. We were friends who became more that should have stayed friends. That’s another post – I digress. So… on the tail end of a failed relationship, all I have is this Dreamcast and “Hatian Fight Song”, a few Showbiz and A.G. songs on a mix tape from my boy, and cheap beer. Looking back it was not a pleasant experience at all- I have put myself in so many bad positions in life and this period was specifically…no good. So, all I have is 2 tapes and a Dreamcast, did anyone see the movie the Jerk? I fell in love again with video games. Before this I used to video game players as dorks…we have all seen them of all ages from 5 to 55 standing in Electronics Boutique discussing the merits of Hideo Kojima game design. But I was hooked…it was all I had, so I thought at the time. For hours I would paly…

…getting games from the UK, the whole nine. (if anyone knows the origin of the expression the whone nine please let me know) Then after that it was my Playstation2 I had my then girl friend, I’ll call her Sybil, pick it up the morning it came out. I traveled with it, took like other people take laptops on plane…I had my PS2. Next it was the Xbox, that I didn’t have to run out and get because I loved the PS2 so much. Nonetheless, the next girlfriend got me the Xbox as a birthday present. Then I discovered the beauty of Xbox, and Xbox modification…I know I’m a geek. Now that I’m an adult, I wish I had embraced this side of my personality much earlier in life. I could have saved so much time and money on gold teeth, malt liquor, rayon shirts and such.

Ramble concluded.

This one is for Frank, I got this one for you a while back but I don’t think I ever posted it.

Speaking of Frank- I don’t think there is anything wrong with looking. Personally I think women want you to look as long as you have all your teeth, and don’t touch, stare, or do like the Wolf with the zoot suit used to do in the cartoons. raises 3 feet off the grown, hat spins around, eyes pop out of their sockets, wistles, tongue hangs out of the mouth to the side, and old horn sounds….Ahoooogh! Looking is natural. At least for me.

the best day!!!!!!!!!!

Today I found out that I might be able to go to the Masters! From ashy to classy. Bet you kain get like me.

Finally! New Music!

recent/ upcoming releases from a few of my favorite artist...

a stand out lines in a song...

came from Lyn Collins who passed a few days ago at the young age of 56. From 'Think' "If its not in your vision- don’t make a decision" And "Put it on the line" nuff said. Some education for those of you without access to a turntable...these songs have been sampled (to death in the case of Think) but who knows the original artist and the body of work she laid out for Permed One ? This is your culture people. Feel free to dig.

Info page.

Think.

Put it on the line.

the funniest thing I have seen in a while....

you gotta see this, kids dont play with guns!

http://www.ebaumsworld.com/deaclass.html

huh?

everything is kind of hazy... work- work - planning - work - everyting is starting to run together. I am a very detailed oriented person. I am the type of person that looks at the water mark on a resume to see if it is right side up. I notice wear on the heels of peoples shoes, I know the licence plate numbers of most of my co-workers. It's not a disorder it is what it is. Needless to say the next few months will be intresting, I can't wait to get it over with. I feel like Im in a dream sequence in a Baz Luhrmann movie. Question: People are always telling me I look like someone. Lately its been someone from the Young and Restless...I'm not sure who, they must have gotten a new yard man on the show. I've heard Larwence Fishburn, I used to hear Tevin Campbell often...the funny part is none of these people look alike. Who do people tell you you look like if anyone. Today I will be getting mesured for my first (hopefully of many) custom made suit. I do have an easy body to shop for so it will be intresting to see what exactly is my correct size.

Pyramid scheme

"Seek and you shall find- I do my own thing because society is blind"-

Paraphrased from Criminal Minded

Self-Actualization

Dr. Abraham Maslow coined the term “Self-Actualization” as the
pinnacle in the hierarchy of human needs.  Dr. Maslow summed up the concept as:

"A musician must make music, an artist must paint, a poet must write,
if he is to be at peace with himself.  What a man can be, he must be.
This is the need we may call self-actualization ... It refers to man's
desire for fulfillment, namely to the tendency for him to become
actually in what he is potentially: to become everything that one
is capable of becoming ..."

As potential models of a self-actualized person, Dr. Maslow identified
the following historical figures: Abraham Lincoln (in his last years),
Thomas Jefferson, Benjamin Franklin, George Washington, Albert
Einstein, Aldous Huxley, William James, Spinoza, Goethe, Pablo
Casals, Pierre Renoir, Robert Browning, Walt Whitman, Henry
Wadsworth Longfellow, Eleanor Roosevelt, Jan Addams, Albert
Schweitzer, Ralph Waldo Emerson and Joseph Haydn among others.

(It is interesting to note that several of these "models" were also
identified by Dr. R. M. Bucke, in his book: "Cosmic Consciousness,"
as individuals that exhibited the behavior of people who had
experienced cosmic consciousness.)  

Characteristics of Self Actualizing People

 Realistic
 Realistically oriented, a Self-Actualizing (SA) person has a more efficient perception
 of reality, and has comfortable relations with it. This is extended to all areas of life.
 A Self-Actualizing person is unthreatened and unfrightened by the unknown. He
 has a superior ability to reason, to see the truth, and is logical and efficient.

 Self Acceptance
 Accepts himself, others and the natural world the way they are. Sees human nature
 as is, has a lack of crippling guilt or shame, enjoys himself without regret or
 apology, and has no unnecessary inhibitions.

 Spontaneity, Simplicity, Naturalness
 Spontaneous in his inner life.  Thoughts and impulses are unhampered by
 convention.  His ethics are autonomous, and Self-actualizing individuals are
 motivated to continual growth.

 Focus of Problem Centering
 A Self-actualizing person focuses on problems and people outside of himself.
 He has a mission in life requiring much energy, as it is his sole reason for
 existence. He is serene, characterized by a lack of worry, and is devoted to duty.

 Detachment: The Need for Privacy
 The Self-actualized person can be alone and not be lonely, is unflappable, and
 retains dignity amid confusion and personal misfortunes, all  the while
 remaining objective.  He is a self starter, is responsible for himself, and owns
 his behavior.

Autonomy: Independent of Culture and Environment
 The SA person has a fresh rather than stereotyped appreciation of people and
 the basic good in life.  Moment to moment living for him is thrilling, trans-
 cending, and spiritual as he lives the present moment to the fullest.

 Peak experiences
 "Feelings of limitless horizons opening up to the vision, the feeling of being
 simultaneously more powerful and also more helpless than one ever was before,
 the feeling of ecstasy and wonder and awe, the loss of placement in time and 
 space with, finally, the conviction that something extremely important and val-
 uable had happened, so that the subject was to some extent transformed and
 strengthened even in his daily life by such experiences." Abraham Maslow

 Interpersonal relations
 Identification, sympathy, affection for mankind, kinship with the good, bad,
 and ugly are all traits of the SA person. Truth is clear to him as he can see
 things others cannot.  He has profound, intimate relationships with few and is
 capable of greater love than others consider possible as he shares his bene-
 volence, affection, and friendliness with everyone.

 Democratic values and attitudes
 The SA person is able to learn from anyone, is humble and friendly with anyone
 regardless of class, education, political belief, race or color.

 Discrimination: means and ends, Good and Evil
 The SA does not confuse between means and ends and does no wrong. He enjoys
 the here and now, getting to goal--not just the result. He makes the most tedious
 task an enjoyable game and has his own inner moral standards (appearing
 amoral to others).

 Philosophical, unhostile sense of humor
 Jokes to the SA person are teaching metaphors, intrinsic to the situation and
 are spontaneous.  He can laugh at himself, but he never makes jokes that hurt
 others.

 Creativity
 The SA person enjoys an inborn uniqueness that carries over into everything
 he does, is original, inventive, uninhibited, and he sees the real and true more
 easily. 

 Resistance to enculturation: Transcendence of any particular culture
 SA people have an inner detachment from culture.  Although folkways may be
 observed, SA people are not controlled by them.   Working for long term culture
 improvement, indignation with injustice, inner autonomy, outer acceptance, and 
 the ability to transcend the environment rather than just cope are intrinsic to
 SA people.

 Imperfections 
 SA people are painfully aware of their own imperfections and joyfully aware of
 their own growth process.   They are impatient with themselves when stuck and
 feel real life pain as a result.

 Values
 The SA person is realistically human due to a philosophical acceptance of self,
 human nature, social life, physical reality, and nature.

 Resolution of dichotomies
 Polar opposites merge into a third, higher phenomenon as though the two have
 united; therefore, opposite forces are no longer felt as conflict.  To the SA
 person  work becomes play and desires are in excellent accord with reason. 
 The SA person retains his childlike qualities yet is very wise.
  

Dos Muchos

this seems to be a cancer on society- Peolple doing well- too much. Rhinestones on fingernails. Adults rolling their eyes/neck. People over fifty with peirced ears and jerseys on... last night at my second gig, someone left a small mess out. Inseatd of asking someone to picke it up the newly appointed manager wrote on a napkin someting like "dont stand there looking at me pick up the trash" with an arrow pointing to the mess. Please stop this epidemic before it gets out of hand. Feel free to report any observations of people doing a little dos muchos.

Twenty five cents.

Yesterday I was going to do a post about Piggy Bank- the not so new offer by Curtis J. But I can’t really give that any more energy.

O-Dub asked on his blog something like what do you consider cheating. Is it only cheating if physical contact is made? For me crossing the line of disrespect is cheating. Cheating is interesting. Correction. Correction cheating isn’t interesting peoples reaction to it is. In my family not unlike many it’s almost expected that men will cheat. End of story. I have a friend that recently found out that her longtime boyfriend had cheated on her again and her response to me was “As long as he takes care of me, I don’t care what he does” I felt sad, that an attractive, educated person would have a position like that but hey, (enter cliché of the moment here). It’s almost like we are sent the wrong messages from early in childhood.

-Mr. Right

Talking to a co-worker I was amazed at how people still try to fit into roles in relationships. Most people are multifaceted individuals that do easily fit into a ‘role’ why do we look for people to fit into a slot instead of letting them make their own?

another stolen post-

1) WHAT IS THE GEEKIEST PART OF YOUR BOOK COLLECTION?

My reference books.

2) WHAT DID YOU DO ON VALENTINE'S DAY?

Work

3) WHAT DID YOU GET ON VALENTINE'S DAY?

A gift certificate.

4) WHAT IS YOUR SECRET GUARANTEED WEEPING MOVIE?

Color Purple. “See daddy – sinners have soul too…”

5) IF YOU COULD HAVE PLASTIC SURGERY, WHAT WOULD YOU HAVE DONE?

Dunno…I cant really think of anyting.

6) DO YOU HAVE A COMPLETELY IRRATIONAL FEAR?

Commitment?

7) WHAT IS THE LITTLE PHYSICAL HABIT THAT GIVES AWAY YOUR INSECURE MOMENTS?

Not knowing what to do with my hands.

8) DO YOU KNOW ANYONE FAMOUS?

Yes.

9) WHAT DO YOU CARRY WITH YOU AT ALL TIMES?

Wallet.

10) WHAT DO YOU MISS ABOUT BEING A KID?

Fighthing.

11) WHAT WAS THE LAST SONG YOU WERE LISTENING TO?

Marathon – Dilated Peoples

12) HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A PLAY?

Yes- I was a deer in the second grade.

13) HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN LOVE?

Yes.

14) DO YOU LIKE YOURSELF AND BELIEVE IN YOURSELF?

YES!

15) DO TRANSIENT, HOMELESS, OR STARVING PEOPLE SOMETIMES ANNOY YOU?

Not really.

16) WHICH MUSICAL INSTRUMENT DO YOU WISH YOU COULD PLAY?

Guitar

17) FAVORITE FABRIC?

Cotton.
18) WHAT'S ONE LANGUAGE YOU WANT TO LEARN?

so many…but I’d like to start with Spanish.

19) WHAT DO YOU ORDER AT A BAR?

Johnny Walker black, Guiness.

20) HAVE YOU EVER PIERCED YOUR BODY PARTS?

just a ear.

21) DO YOU HAVE TATTOOS?

Yes.

22) DO YOU DRIVE A STICK?

Nope.

23) FAVORITE TRAIT OF THE OPPOSITE SEX

the nurturing side of women.

24) MOST FRIVOLOUS PURCHASE?

dunno…

25) WHAT ARE YOU BEST AT COOKING?

herb roasted chicken- homemade mashed potatoes and grilled asparagus

26) WOULD YOU EVER GO OUT DRESSSED LIKE THE OPPOSITE SEX?

why not?

27) WHAT'S ONE CAR YOU WILL NEVER BUY?

Pacer.

28) WHAT KIND OF BOOKS DO YOU LIKE TO READ?

mostly non fiction.

29) IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?

travel for a year or two, then start free a non-profit prep school in the inner city.

30) DO YOU CRY IN FRONT OF YOUR FRIENDS?

Never.

31) WHAT'S ONE THING YOU LIKE TO DO ALONE?

xbox.

32) ARE YOU A GIVER OR A TAKER?

Both.

33) WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?

on a plane…my ears were killing me.

34) HOW MANY DRINKS BEFORE YOU'RE TIPSY/SLEEPY?

2/3 double duces.

35) WOULD YOU EVER SHAVE YOUR HEAD BALD?

I have many times.

randomness...

my MILF of the day. Every since I saw Jungle Fever...its been on...then Sparkle, Women of Brewster Place...she has always been hot to me...



ebay Is the bees knees



remember when you couldn't read in cursive?



recon trip to NYC in a few...



I dont remember Barbi getting knocked up?

Kon Karne

wack rap beef . This is so corny. I dont see how people listen to their dribble, but hey- To each his own, said the lady that kissed the cows ass. But sheech give it a break. I would post a picture of these corn balls but I cant bring myself to.

Donnie McClurkin -

I had a moment last night...I'm back. After a month of 7 day almost 80 hour weeks, I had a moment. But I got up. Back to the grind. Grand hustle-

Congrats to Heather and Christopher! It's good to see people happy.

Somebody at work said some guy on American Idol reminded them of me...so be on the look out for some dude named Travis and tell me if he is a lame-o or not.

Congrats to Morgan Freeman and Jamie Foxx.

more later-